You say you want to accumulate wealth, prosperity and abundance. But when you realize that this is our natural state (cuz it is) the question shouldn't be "how do I gain wealth?" But rather "why on earth am I NOT currently experiencing these things?"
It really amazes me that very few people seem to ask themselves this question. I can spill some tea - the answer does not lie in hard work, manifestation tools or positive thinking with the conscious mind. In fact, working hard for wealth - even if it is "spiritual" work - is the biggest confirmation that we are INDEED lacking. After all, why else would we work so hard?
It’s so obvious when you see it: There is a deep unconscious fear that keeps abundance away. Think about it, what do we fear more than lack itself?
It is our fear of losing it. The egioc mind suffers more through losing than through never gaining in the first place. If we have nothing, we cannot lose it. This feels like safety - it's so stupid that it is brilliant. No sane person would ever consciously do this to themselves, but our human existence simply consists of one paradox after another.
The ego is not an evil force, you just have to know its purpose. The ego was never designed to keep us happy, fulfilled or to make us live our best lives. Its only concern is to protect us in the ways it knows. It is a deep-rooted and ancient mechanism, perfectly made for actual life and death situations. Your ego is not the problem. The amount of space and importance you are giving it is.
If you are not aware of this, you can think positively and manifest all you want, but true wealth fails to materialise because there are greater forces at work in your unconscious mind: A hidden part of you doesn't want to experience wealth because of the fear of losing it all. Meanwhile, your ego is truly grateful for all your conscious spiritual effort, because it is the perfect distraction for the ego to keep doing its work in your subconscious. So while you are busy thinking you are creating your happy life, your ego is keeping you small in the background. While one could call it sabotage, this is just a matter of perception, for the ego is just doing what it’s supposed to do. And it is doing it quite perfectly.
So. This is it, then? Did I really subscribe to this newsletter to get this “boost”? Is there nothing I can do? Of course there is. But it starts with awareness and being honest with yourself. I want you to think about the following, not just as a general psychological, spiritual truth, but apply this to yourself: Deep down, when you are really honest with yourself, can you feel the fear of your dreams coming true? Do you fear being happy one moment and devastated the next because life took everything away? Do you fear living in Greatness because after that there can only be disappointment?
The tragedy of this is that whatever we think, we are always right. If we deeply believe that it is inevitable to experience loss after gain, that we will experience disappointment after success - we shall be right. But this isn’t true because it is a universal law. It is true because you believe it to be true.
So shifting this perception starts by being really honest with yourself. Where are your fears holding you back? In what ways do they 'protect' you from sudden pain? And can you be honest about your desires? Is it truly wealth, success, abundance, happiness you want or is there still a part of you who prefers to feel safe? I coach a lot of people who THINK they desire those things, but actually admit to themselves it is safety they are after. If so, creating safety within yourself is priority no 1. Only from that place can you dream and create freely - there is no shortcut for it in manifestation wonderland. This is the hard, raw, inner work where you face your darkness. But I can promise you this, when you are up for this work, your life will never be the same again.
Sending you love, blessings and a shitload of darkness, Romy
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